Archive for November, 2010

November 20, 2010

the ups and downs

i started a post titled “the grumbles” the other day, griping about the woes of solo-parenting two demanding kiddos, but i got called away by children and motherly duties before i had a chance to finish it.  it’s tucked away in my drafts folder now.  when i returned to my computer the next day and i saw that draft sitting there, i smiled happily and realized that i didn’t need to finish it because, miracle of miracles, the grumbles had disappeared!  grumbly wednesday was followed by a pretty darn awesome thursday, full of smiles and laughter and cooperative children.  ain’t that grand?!

it seems that that’s the way it is, this life with kids.  one day is up, the next is down.  there will be good days and there will be great days, but there are the inevitable awful, want-to-sell-your-children-to-the-gypsies days tucked in there as well.  there are plenty of days when my well of patience and laughter is full – those are the fun days, the days when i can just roll with the punches – but there are also days when i feel like a tightly stretched wire, constantly vibrating and threatening to snap.  those days are not fun.  those are the days when my daughter’s dawdling and insistent-yet-incompetent independence are just about too much to handle.  those are the days when her constant noise and motion are a real challenge for my silence-and-stillness craving soul.  but she is three; amazingly, wonderfully, delightfully three.  confident and intelligent and hilarious and curious…yet moody.  yes, three is definitely moody.  she is a challenge, for sure, but she is awesome.

and the boy.  oh, how i love the boy.  he has my heart.  i want to scoop him up and drink him in, devouring the chub of his thighs and the sweetness of his cheeks.  he is full of laughs and motion.  he crawls, he climbs, he stands, he is never still.  he is six-months old.  i think back to the days before we decided to have a second child and i cannot believe that i ever doubted that i could possibly have room in my heart for two kids.  ::sigh::

but juggling two kids alone is tough.  holding the baby (to prevent him from attempting to climb the stairs or scale the kitchen cabinets) while simultaneously tending to the girl-child who needs me to wipe her tushie/have a tea party/pour a glass of juice/fetch a snack is exhausting.  wonderful, yet exhausting.  my husband is an amazing, helpful father and partner but he also works long hours and has been traveling more than usual lately.  i have mad respect for single parents who juggle kiddos and careers by themselves.  after three days of solo-parenting i am spent.

up and down, the grumbles will come and go, and i give thanks on the days when the awesome outweighs the awful.  i will continue to rely on coffee and wine to get me through, savoring every moment (because i’m supposed to) even if i have to do so through gritted teeth while counting to ten v-e-r-y, v-e-r-y slowly (because sometimes i have to).

November 14, 2010

scattered thoughts ahead: proceed with caution

i have a million ideas floating in my head:  snippets of creativity, inspirations, aspirations, must-do, must-make thoughts.  i want to paint, and sew, and photograph, and design, and create, and stitch, and draw, and then tie it up in a bow, throw some glitter on it and show it off to the world…but i don’t know where to start.  i feel paralyzed by creative aspiration.  is there anything worse than creative paralysis?  the bubbling energy that zipzipzips through me when i dream about all i want to make comes crashing down when i try to think about how to make it all happen.  ::crumble, crash, fail, despair::  linear, organized brain in battle with scattered, creative brain.  harumph.  distracted crafter syndrome in full effect.

November 6, 2010

tweets to my 16 year old self

there was a topic on twitter yesterday in which people were revealing the bits of wisdom they would bestow upon their younger selves if they could travel back in time and have a chat.  i didn’t add mine there, but it inspired me to create this list of my own:
  • it’s okay to let people know that you’re sad – feelings are not flaws
  • it’s also okay to let people know that you’re happy
  • that guy you’re in love with is not the one and that is okay…you’ll find out soon enough that he’s good for right now, but not for forever
  • listen to your parents.  it turns out they’re right about a lot of things
  • eyebrow shaping and maintenance is a job best left to professionals
  • there’s a big difference between loneliness and being alone.  you’ll find out that solitude suits you and that’s just fine
  • the bully who “stole” your best friend and your crush?  she’ll end up marrying someone really unfortunate looking.  thanks, facebook.
  • smart and pretty are not mutually exclusive
  • it’s okay that you dropped calculus.  you will never, ever need to know calculus in real life
  • a fresh start is nice, but don’t try to change who you are
  • don’t quit dance lessons
  • it’s okay that you don’t have a clue what you want to be when you grow up.  you still won’t have a clue when you’re in your thirties
  • that number you’re trying to maintain on the scale but still believe to be too high?  enjoy it, honey.  you will never see it again after college, and won’t even approach it after you’ve had kids
  • dude…lighten up a little.  you’re only sixteen once

how about you?  anything you’d like to say to your adolescent self?

November 5, 2010

the most wonderful time of the year is upon us once again

put down the halloween candy, folks, we’re on to the next holiday…or maybe even the one after that.  even though we haven’t yet had our first snowfall here in colorado – my weather widget tells me that saturday is predicted to be in the mid-70’s and sunny, by the way – the red cups at starbucks and christmas displays in every store tell me that the holiday season is upon us.  there are only seven weeks (!!) until christmas, it’s time to get Elf-ing.

i tend to get a little bah humbug around the holidays because there are so many things to do, so many things to buy, so many things to eat, and limited time in which to get everything done.  even with the best intentions to simplify it’s still all a bit overwhelming.  i try to make things as easy as possible which means that you’d have to pour a lot of brandy in my eggnog to convince me to step foot in a mall between mid-november and january and i outsource whenever i can.  in other words, online shopping is my friend.

if there is anything better than easy during the holiday madness it’s free and easy, so when i saw the opportunity to snag 50 free christmas cards from Shutterfly i was giddy.  i love sending photo cards to friends and family every Christmas because, let’s be honest, it gives me the opportunity to show off cute pictures of my kids…what mom doesn’t love that?  i order my cards and address labels (again, easy!) from Shutterfly every year because their site allows me to make the cute and stylish photo cards that i would design myself if i had any sort of graphic design know-how.  best of all, it’s simple and easy.


in 2007 our card looked like this:

in 2008, like this.  my, how my baby has grown:

and in 2009 we sent this gem:

our 2010 picture will be fun to design because we have another member of the family to include, our 6 month old son.  you know how much people love to see pictures of adorable babies…i may have to order more than one style card this year just to get all the best pictures of everyone in there.  browsing through the sample designs i already see quite a few that i think will be perfect for our cards.  now i better hurry up and take some pictures so i can get the cards ordered.  only 7 weeks until christmas, remember?


disclaimer: this post sponsored by shutterfly and their free cards for bloggers offer, but i would have ordered from shutterfly even without the offer.